Monday, August 31, 2009


Make her shut up!
No one cares!
No one listens!
Make her shut up!!!!
Or I will!
doesn't she get it by now?
I am trying really hard not to hurt her right now
really hard
but she is pressing it
and its going to happen if she doesnt shut up


  1. I've felt like that the last 6 years and it's driven me crazy to the point I was starting to become angry, violent and have nervous breakdown. Thank God I never lost my self control. Recently I was in terrible pain and suffering myself (you do not want to know how or why) but I endured it without too much complaining since I had no one to listen to me without saying "go to a doctor" or "You need an appointment with a psychiatrist" :- )

    But in the end, I read that it is "Best to suffer wrong than to do it" and patiently waited in faith and loving words within me despite what my body was telling me.

    I started reading about God and that has saved me. Not reading about him with a blind faith, but actually believing more and more because of the results of that faith on me.

    I suggest you read the "1000 names of Vishnu" , the "names of Shiva" , read the "names of Christ". And always repeat in your head the word "GOD" . For it is all powerful and dispels all sorrow and ignorance.


    Some quotes for you:

    - Attach yourself to Him who is free from all attachments. Bind yourself to that bond in order that all other bonds may be broken..
    - He who is free from all attachments
    - the Self-Sufficient
    - Wait for the Lord, and he will deliver you
    - The most liberal
    - Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect
    - He will fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy

    These are various titles of God throughout the years. They have helped me gain strength and freedom.

    Also read "The names of Rhadarani" since you are female and could see more of yourself in there.

    Lots of love,

    I hope everything goes right.