Every Friday night we watched a “Sammy Terry”
Sammy Terry, which is a play on the word "Cemetery" was the host of Nightmare Theater. "Sammy Terry," Every Friday, Sammy Terry would show a horror film. Scary movies scared the little girl. Vampires, Witches, Dracula....scare little Gracie.
Sammy Terry came out of a coffin and he scared little Gracie. So scared of his spider. Still scared of all spiders. Every Friday, night sat next to him…his arm around her shoulder, his hand resting casually on her chest. She doesn’t like it but she doesn’t try to move his hand away. Why? She can smell him. Cigarette smoke and stale beer. She wants the movie to hurry up and end. Hurry up! It lasts for a long time. Her heart is beating fast because the movie is too long. She thinks he can hear her heart beating. Mother asleep. He will hurt her when the movie is over.
He says, “Mother get up and go to bed.”
“Go to bed Gracie. I’ll be in to tuck you in.” Gracie isn’t allowed to wear panties to bed. Only a cotton nightgown. This is because of all the UTIs and kidney infections. That’s why she isn’t allowed.
Gracie gets in bed and waits. Hurry up! Hurry up! Gracie is bad. She didn’t wish for it NOT to happen, she wished for it to happen FASTER. Why? She liked it. She wanted it. That’s why and she is a bad girl. She wanted her father to fuck her. What a terrible little girl she is! Bad! She wished he would do it. Don’t feel good today. Smells bad. Throat hurts. Acid in my stomach. Head hurts. Body hurts. Tired. Hurts to sit. Hurts to walk. Couldn’t work today. Can’t focus. Don’t feel good.
Psycho angry girl so mean. She knows DT will go away again. Just like last week. So DT go away now. For good. Hurry up! Hurry up! Get it over with! Hurry up! Hurry up so she will stop crying! Hurry up! Go now! She wants DT to go away! Go away, DT! Go away NOW!
((((Gracie))))
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I think your last paragraph is proof that the little girl is not bad. It's normal to want to get through the bad things and get them over with. Especially things you can't stop, like the man whore. Gracie is not bad or dirty, she just had no one who could stop him and she wanted the pain to be over with.
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