Saturday, October 31, 2009

OLY OLY OXEN FREE!

He yells at night:  Gracie, Come out, come out, where ever you are...
OLY OLY OXEN FREE


She has been playing hide and seek at night.
Last night was really bad...
She LOST it emotionally! 
and there was no rationalizing with her.
Friday night/night before Halloween combination sent her over the edge.
She tries desperately to find a safe place so he cannot find her, so he cannot hurt her.
Last night she hid in the laundry room
and
she hid in the office
and
she hid in the chair, covered by blankets
and
she hid on the guest room where she left her bean bag pillow 
The call log on the phone tells she made several calls to the therapist,
perhaps in an effort to feel safe. 
There is no safe place for her at night. 
She searches and searches...
wandering the house at night...
seeking shelter from the storm anywhere she can.   
She wonders when it will stop
She feels small and tired, weak and afraid...all the time.
And he always seems to find her...

4 comments:

  1. This kind of stuff doesn't mix well with halloween. I hear you. And I understand needing to hear a certain voice at times like this.

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  2. yeah...the children are with friends all night tonight and DH decided he wanted to hand out Halloween candy. But he will be in bed early and I'm already feeling anxious. Too many scary movies on TV - I may call you tonight...

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  3. I hope you are okay this morning...
    ((hugs))

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