This Demon

I feel it racing through my soul..through my veins~it’s power courses
Controlling, maneuvering...and manipulating...
My mind, my body…my very essence
This is not me! But who am I?

It robs me of my true identity.

Others see the *me* from the outside, and yet they fail to see the inner turmoil.

This Demon...

Can hide, can deceive and fool others.

It lays dormant inside me...waiting in the depths and shadows of my soul

Patiently waiting for the moment he has me alone...isolated

Where he will laugh and mock me

I long for friends, social connections,

Knowing if I am with others, he will stay away

He will be held at bay...but no one comes.

He fools them...I fool them...

I pretend all is fine~knowing it's not

Crying silently for help.

Why doesn't anyone hear me?

Why can't they see the truth?

Be strong, take charge, cease the falseness...

Challenge me, guide me, be strong for me...
This Demon...

He wants no friends...only me...forever controlling...

Stop this...Stop it!

See things for what they really are!

See through me, my words...my actions...they are not mine...

Don't leave me...please...please don't go...

It's what the Demon wants...

He waits in solitude, yearning for the moments I am alone...

He hates you...he wants me...I hate him...and yet I cannot let him go...

This Demon...

He thrives on my inner turmoil~ he revels in my sadness & my pain...

Stay with me...you are my only hope...

Don't you see my words are false, they are controlled & manipulated?

They are not me! Not mine...

They are the words of the Demon...

His strength is great but yours is greater...

Please stay, be my strength...reach out...save me...

Hold on to me... please don't turn away...believe in me...

Where is the light, the peace,the calm?

I feel only the storm...please~hold me; pull me away from the depths of his grip...

This Demon...my enemy...

Can you? Will you? Are you patient enough?

Can you show me... Will you teach me...

Please, challenge me...my words and my actions...

They are not mine, they are his...

This Demon...

Help me beat him...for I cannot without you...

Don't leave me...please...

When I push you...push back...for I am losing...

My strength is my weakness...this is not me...

See me! Please, before it's too late...

See me...