Friday, November 20, 2009

“How shameful and absurd it is for the spirit to surrender when the body is able to fight on ”

An ancient Rome Emperor said, “How shameful and absurd it is for the spirit to surrender when the body is able to fight on.”

His words resonate through me tonight, like many nights before…I am borrowing the Emporer’s words tonight to express how I feel. I feel like my soul was murdered a long time ago. My body is here – as f’d up as it is – my heart still beats – but my body is empty, void of a soul.

I have no fight left in me now.  My heart is still beating ~ but I'm no longer here. 

3 comments:

  1. please never give up. Someone told me once, the best revenge is living an awesome life. Hang in...Sarah

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  2. You can overcome this. It's not the end. There is a future. There is a cure.
    My sister has been locked in the psych for 2 months, the dr's are telling her 'there is nothing we can do for you as long as you do not want to live'.. she is trapped in a prison, where they monitor her to keep her alive.
    Only you can make that decision, to want to live and once you have made it, that's when the change starts and it can be done!!

    Much love and many hugs coming your way

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  3. Thank you, Sarah, I am trying...every single minute of every day. And it gets better, and then it gets worse, and then it gets better, and then it gets worse...

    Zan, I have read about your sister and how difficult it is for both of you. I understand...and I thank you for the hugs and the love and acceptance...

    ~ Grace

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