I feel trapped with the ghosts on the 13th floor of the Hollywood Hotel

Since the spa incident this morning I have been trapped in a void, locked in a place where no one can reach me.  Trapped with the ghosts on the 13th floor of the Hollywood Hotel. 

Ironically, no one seems to notice that I'm not here. I don't know if that is good or bad.  Is this a tribute to my acting skills or an inability of others to see through the mask? 

I don't know which is worse...dissociating to the point where you have no idea what is happening, or watching it without the ability to stop it.

I don't feel real today. 

Going down?