Sunday, July 5, 2009

If I Die Tonight

If I die tonight
Hold onto these last words
But do not let them bring you down
I am saying them to you
To help to get you through
When I am gone
If I die tonight
I would want you to know
How much you have meant to me
You have been a rock in my life
My source of strength through everything on this endless journey
I would not have made it this far without you and your support
If I die tonight
I would want you to know that I am very thankful
That I got the chance to be part of your life
As you have been such a wonderful part of mine
If I die tonight
I hope you’ll continue to live your life to the fullest
Knowing that I could not, in mine
So please, do it for me
If I die tonight
Please know that I will be in a better place
What wherever that place is know that I am happy
And please remember that I will always love you
Because love is the one thing what will never die


  1. umm we are hoping you arent going to have to use that poem any time soon because you arent here anymore (((((()))))))

  2. and that last comment was by jumpinginpuddles

  3. Dear Grace,

    I don't know if this is a poem expressing a feeling or a suicide note--if you're okay could you please let us know? I'm worried about you.


  4. eeabee,
    I'm so sorry to worry you...that was not my intention. I've just been in a funk-overwhelmed, tired, dissociative (I'm sure you know the drill...) and I haven't been writing this week as a result.
    I'm still 'alive' (if you call this alive) - I have lots of things to say, but I can't find the words right now...
    Thank you for your concern and love...It truly means a lot...
    And I return it to you... ~ Grace

  5. Oh - Eeabee - I did read your ? on one of my posts about dissociation - and I am going to answer you - I just haven't had the time or the words this week - but I will.
    ~ Gracie

  6. Grace,

    thank you but i also do understand, and it was more concern and love than worry, which i feel freely.

    i do also have patches where i don't feel like writing or don't know where i am exactly too.

    i hope you can get some rest (physical and emotional) for the tired part of how you're feeling at least.

    take care,