Today I am wrapping myself in bubble wrap...and hiding the arsenal

That should keep me safe today, right?

Yup, I've come unglued and this unglued non-pulled together Grace is not fit for private, nor may she be viewed by the public eye.  I cannot imagine going outside or doing anything for myself.  I cannot imagine taking a shower or getting dressed right now.  So again today,  like yesterday, I am going to hide inside myself and pretend I have no responsibilities.  In fact, I think I will stay hidden until next week sometime.  Maybe it will feel safer then. 

I feel disconnected and detached from everything, including myself.

Last night I struggled with the strong desires to SI.  The screaming inside is overwhelming! And I cannot take care of myself right now.  I know that.  So until I can I will wrap myself in bubble wrap and hide the SI arsenal.