What a good little Gracie...she 'worked it out by herself tonight'.

I hurt myself on Sunday night. I tried to reach out to DT but she wasn’t available (as usual). I did leave her a voicemail. Tonight DT emailed…..

Grace,
I recognize that you had a VERY difficult night last night. I realize that you still weigh the options of living vs dying and that this continues to plague you on a daily basis. You are angry at me for many things and I will continue to do my best to listen, while I realize that often doesn't make things any better or different for you. Try to keep in touch with the other parts of you that also need attention and a voice. These "parts" of you are just as worthy and important. I was glad to get your voice mail from your 11:30pm call and I realize that you did what you felt was your only option. I would like to clarify that the 24 hour post-self injury rule pertains to phone contact. Your sessions are still also available to you as scheduled. I have you scheduled at 12:30 on Wed... so i will see you then.
DT

Grace replied:
DT, Thanks... and I wish it mattered to me still that you were 'listening' as you say you are (to the best of your ability)...but it no longer does. I'm too tired. I don't want to talk anymore, I'm all talked out - and it hasn't done a lick of good...so I don't want to talk anymore. I just need it to be over. Realizing you did your best - which is always *good enough*...it's just not working.
Regards, Grace
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But, no worries…Grace has “worked it out”!
I took a handful of ativan (they're really tiny and only .5mg each) and I'm getting ready to take a couple of seroquel - so hopefully she'll be asleep and therefore unable to fly into a borderline rage at her perception of DT's absence of care.

YEAH! Gracie is "Dealing With It" What a "good" girl she is! What a good little girl.....

Now let me go tuck her into bed before she's not conscious enough to walk up the stairs....