Monday, May 11, 2009

Hope is Stronger than Grief

It occurred to me today that it takes a lot of courage to be hopeful. One has to walk into hope with the knowledge that hope is just a dream, yet, with hope that dreams can come true. What a dichotomy!

hope /hoʊp/ hohp] hoped, hop·ing.
–noun 1. the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: 2. a particular instance of this feeling: 3. grounds for this feeling in a particular instance: 4. a person or thing in which expectations are centered: 5. something that is hoped for: 6. to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence. 7. to believe, desire, or trust: 8. to feel that something desired may happen: 9. Archaic. to place trust; rely 10. hope against hope, to continue to hope, although the outlook does not warrant it:
Often we have no hope at all that a certain desire may be fulfilled. So much so that we discard the desire as a dream that is dead and buried, and turn to a journey where we actively work for someone else's desires to be fulfilled. As we travel the road of fulfilling the hopes of another, our own hope peeks out from around the corner then darts back out of sight as soon as we turn to look at it - taking its essence with it. (Wait a second! I sent that hope died and I buried it a long time ago) Then, it begins to get more bold, and stay just long enough for us to begin to recognize its face. It essence invades you, almost against your own will, to make a real change in your life.

You begin to question. . . Do I dare to hope? Do I dare take the chance? Do I have "reasonable confidence" (as is expressed in the definition above) that this can morph from being dead and in hell into livable reality? I can't go through much more pain, unless the pain actually produces some positive results. Is this a *real* hope, or only real because I secretly long for it to be so?

Hope is just a . . . thing. But what courage it takes to dare to accept it.

I guess I have begun a new journey. A journey of hope~ this time for myself and not for another. So, for today, I choose to be brave. For today, I choose to hope. Today, I choose to rescue hope from the hell to which I, personally, banished it - come what may.

Have you seen my shovel?


  1. This is beautiful, courageous, strong and very healthy and healing. Thanks for sharing your journey. You can do hugs ♥♥♥

  2. Blessings dear one. Thank you for sharing this positive message!!!

  3. Grace, this is really great. I have to smile for you. You are so right that it is SO hard to do! You are very brave, and are an inspiration. Thank you.

  4. Hope is the reason I get up every morning, the reason I continue to fight the monsters in my head. I have to hope that my world will get better even if I have to lie to myself to believe