Saturday, June 20, 2009
Give Me Strength
This afternoon I was driving on this old country road. There was no traffic, with the exception of me and a semi-truck coming toward me in the other lane. I was alone, and I thought maybe I'll just swerve to the left ~ into the path of the truck. How easy it would have been ~ just a few feet to the left. The truck driver wouldn't have time to stop, and there's no question who would prevail in the fight of an 18 wheeler vs a Nissan compact car. And I thought about it. It was tempting.
The initial impact...and then nothing. Just peace and quiet and the lack of pain. No more memories, or fear...no more intense anger and sadness.
I thought about it ~ But I didn't do it.