Saturday, July 3, 2010

Why are you such a disappointment, Grace?

I have been hanging on by a thread for a couple of months now. I feel so emotionally fragile that I feel like a strong wind could blow me away. I don’t expect anyone to understand. I used to…but I really don’t anymore. Because of the uncontrollable rage and terror and hopelessness, I have engaged in self-destructive behavior (nothing illegal) and written detailed suicide plans. I have cut myself, drank too much, taken too many pills. I have screamed and cried and banged my head against the wall and the floor. I have begged God to let me die and begged him to help me live.

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